Sorry to hear you're in a pickle. If you've come this far, I'm sure you'll figure it out. Things always work out in the end, and if they haven't worked out yet,...it's just not the end yet!
Breathe. Count to 10. There, hope that helps. If I lived closer, I could help you.
I feel for you, sistah; I've been there, done that, but it was a diamond border