Patti, not having the surgery is disappointing, but there's a reason why your surgery has been postponed. You may not know the reason for quite some time. I can't cut or sew right now, either. I'm leaning toward music right now. It helps to keep my mind off the chronic pain. Maybe you could try counted cross stitch or knitting.
Several years ago, the nucleus of all my lumbar discs leaked out, causing severe pain from my waist down. I could hardly walk. One day, I'd had enough, and prayed sincerely to die. The next day, my pain was gone! Don't rule out miracles. There was another miracle that came from that, but I won't write a book.
When you're really down, email me. I can't guarantee that you'll be cheered up, but I'll certainly try.
Have a great weekend, Sharon in TN